Man am I ever Ready for some good things to happen!!
I woke up this morning feeling completely defeated. I haven't felt like this in what seemed like ages. In my defense, I have gone through some major transformations over the past 6 months and with each shift, a day can seem like it was forever ago. There was my quitting of a 20 year career, loss of my relationship, struggles with close family, identity crisis, and numerous other irritatingly difficult issues, like school, internet, automobile issues, appliances not working right, losing of important keys, you know- that stuff that digs in when you are trying really hard to maintain some control. In it all, I have kept the faith that I was being led, I have been given so many signs to "keep going", "trust", and " just allow" that as I listened, I found it got me through. It has been amazing, truly. I believe this journey has been necessary in removing those things that for whatever reason did not need to accompany me on the new adventures awaiting. This space of Perceptions being my beam of light.
so, I have learned to allow most things to come and go without much resistance to it anymore and oh what joy and calm this is!! -- until this morning.
When I woke up, I could not focus on anything.. what is it I need to do? what is I I am truly thinking? feeling? No thoughts made any sense in helping me move forward.
I turned on the tv and Mooji was telling the story of the soldier asking Jesus to help him where he lacked faith. I paused, stopped the video and asked for the same thing.
Since this morning Nothing has really changed and yet in the subtleties of my day- everything in me changed.
I truly love how the answers always come! and As I get ready for bed I am aware that I am back in peace and If only for today, I am so very grateful it.
G'night
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